Inspiration of the Day: "Sometimes a 'mistake' can end up being the best decision you ever make." -Mandy Hale
Everything happens for a reason. It is such a cliche saying but one that is so very true. I've had so many things happen, not only in my life but even just in the past year. So many things that have scared me, hurt me, challenged me, and made me grow in so many ways.
Just within the past two weeks I had something happened that effected me in all those ways. I had surgery on my knee to replace some missing cartilage. I was very scared. Up until this point, I never had any kind of surgery nor had I been put under. All these things definitely had an effect on my anxiety. I have been dealing with pain that I have never felt before. Those who know me, know that I have a very low tolerance for pain. Even seeing my incision for the first time made me dizzy and sick to my stomach. But in the last week, with me being alone in my apartment, I have found out a lot about myself. I also have come to the terms that no one, absolutely no one can every call me weak. I don't always think I'm the strongest, but with all that I have gone through in my life and what I am having to do with my recovery is making me feel very strong.
Another thing that has taught me more than I know along with causing me to grow a lot as a person was losing something I thought I wanted. For three years, I thought I had found the person I wanted to be with. I know hind-sight is 20/20, and looking back I see now that I sacrificed a lot and would have given up a lot of things if it would've worked out. But at the time, I fell into some dark days. I had given so much of myself in those three years and can't tell you how many times I questioned God. But I found out as more time went by that it just wasn't what is in His plan for me.
I have since found someone else, and am starting to see that the more I put in God's hands, the more things seem to come together. With my three year 'relationship' ending, I had come to think that everything I had done in those three years was a waste. I at one point was regretting my decision to move from Pennsylvania to Minnesota. But there are so many things I would have missed out on if I wouldn't have made that move.
Everything happens for a reason...and I can't wait to find out where these crazy reasons will take me next.
Just within the past two weeks I had something happened that effected me in all those ways. I had surgery on my knee to replace some missing cartilage. I was very scared. Up until this point, I never had any kind of surgery nor had I been put under. All these things definitely had an effect on my anxiety. I have been dealing with pain that I have never felt before. Those who know me, know that I have a very low tolerance for pain. Even seeing my incision for the first time made me dizzy and sick to my stomach. But in the last week, with me being alone in my apartment, I have found out a lot about myself. I also have come to the terms that no one, absolutely no one can every call me weak. I don't always think I'm the strongest, but with all that I have gone through in my life and what I am having to do with my recovery is making me feel very strong.
Another thing that has taught me more than I know along with causing me to grow a lot as a person was losing something I thought I wanted. For three years, I thought I had found the person I wanted to be with. I know hind-sight is 20/20, and looking back I see now that I sacrificed a lot and would have given up a lot of things if it would've worked out. But at the time, I fell into some dark days. I had given so much of myself in those three years and can't tell you how many times I questioned God. But I found out as more time went by that it just wasn't what is in His plan for me.
I have since found someone else, and am starting to see that the more I put in God's hands, the more things seem to come together. With my three year 'relationship' ending, I had come to think that everything I had done in those three years was a waste. I at one point was regretting my decision to move from Pennsylvania to Minnesota. But there are so many things I would have missed out on if I wouldn't have made that move.
Everything happens for a reason...and I can't wait to find out where these crazy reasons will take me next.
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